Many have asked "Whyjadoit?!?!?!?!"
Here's the reason:
Well, I planned to grow out my relaxer and to cut the ends along the way until all of the "perm" had been trimmed off. I've worn my hair past my shoulders for years. After five and a half months of trying to grow the relaxer out and my natural hair in, it had become a "project" that I didn't have time for. I was spending more time trying to figure out how to make the two textures comply than I had with a relaxer! For me, the two textures were NOT working and I had to make a decision. I encouraged my daughter to go natural five months ago and she cut off her locks to start her new journey, but me...I was afraid. Afraid of how I'd look. Afraid that my nose would be too big, afraid that I wasn't ready for the texture that God had given me. So, while I watched my daughter love her own low-maintenance-natural hair I was struggling with the fear of not having my long, bouncy, flowing, relaxed hair. I was afraid that my facial shape wouldn't fit the "BIG CHOP". Boy, was I wrong.
As my own natural hair was growing in I was eventually able to feel and get acquainted with the shape of the tight curls growing from my scalp. Normally, I'd slap relaxer on them before they had a chance to bend and form. The transition allowed me to feel the coils that had developed in my natural curl pattern, and I was intrigued by them. Without even realizing it, I had fallen in love with my own hair...and it made it easier to let go.
After living with a relaxer for over thirty years of my life, I cut my hair off at 2:00 in the morning --- and when I woke up, the realization of it had to be assessed. I touched my head and thought...'Wow, it wasn't a dream, I realllllyyyyy cut off all my hair.' BUT! I wasn't sad. I've never been happier with a decision. I LOVE the new me. What's even more exciting to experience is the reactions that I get from people the first time they see my new short natural hair cut, "I love it. Wow it fits you. I could never cut off all my hair my heads too big. My hair is too "nappy," What made you do that. Wow, you're are brave, and then there are those that don't say anything at all. After knowing me for 10+ years, they are in such shock that I cut off my locks that, "If you don't have nothing good to say," they choose to say nothing. Well, I'm glad I did it. I've carved out so much more time for myself and I'm not spending valuable time in a salon or on the road trying to get there. This decision was mine and mine alone, but I know that many others will follow.
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